I spent last year writing a thesis on, among other things, dying to yourself.
This year I am learning to live it again in a new way.
I am on the team for a new extension service in a suburb about 25 mins drive from my house. I chose to be part of it because I wanted a new challenge. I wanted to see if I could still connect people to God and his house – without them being fee paying students !
I also wanted to make sure I was not one of those people who taught without doing.
I love working under the Service Pastor Julie Maconachie, she is brilliant.
However I am learning about laying down my life from this new experience and by watching people around me.
It is so easy to stand on an altar call, in a moment of sacred worship and say “Lord have my life” but it is in the little little things that this is tested.
It is tested
- When it costs $40 to park for church (which it did the first morning before I got smarter)
- When it involves lugging equipment up two flights of stairs
- When it means doing a job I am totally unskilled at, feeling totally out of my depth, making a million mistakes, until the right person comes along.
- When I really just want to go home, because I am tired and cranky but I go to a team lunch because I am part of the team (and end up having a blast)
It is so easy to lay down your life for Jesus until it means you don’t have time to get a good coffee, or you have to loose another hour of sleep on a Sunday morning. When it now means you have to make an effort to see friend instead of the convenience of seeing them at your normal service. When you push through when you have a headache or a heartache because you want to see His Kingdom come.
Its funny – the grand gestures and big decisions are somehow easier. It is in the little things that our levels of commitment and submission to His agenda and not our own, is revealed.
I am working on mine afresh !!
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